It’s been on my heart lately to read the Bible more. I’ve never been the studious Jesus follower that spends time in the Word daily. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve sat down at Genesis chapter one and not made it past the seventh day.
Sure, I read the highlights in Sunday school and all of that, but I’ve never felt the craving for it that I do now. It started a few months ago when we were starting I Peter at church and later that evening I couldn’t shake this nagging feeling that I needed to read the next chapter. For the first time in my life I feel ready to receive it and acutely aware of my need for it.
So, I decided to start one of the reading plans in the Bible app. I came across “Know Your Why: Finding and Fulfilling Your Calling.” It was a quick five day plan with a short devotional and 1-2 supporting verses for each of the five days. A small start, but let’s be honest, the Bible isn’t exactly an easy read you’re going to fly through in a weekend.
Since we are being honest, I will admit I’ve struggled with the uncertainty of my “life calling.” It wasn’t the easiest adjustment for me to go from working at one of the top ten most admired companies in the world to a stay-at-home mom.
When people would ask me what I do for a living, I would respond with “Well, I used to work for XYZ Company, but now I am a stay-at-home Mom.” Enough time has passed that I’ve not worked there longer than I did, so that answer doesn’t feel appropriate any more; like an ex-high school athlete clinging to their glory days in the gym a decade later.
I used to get caught up in the grief of what I thought was my the path for my life but as each day passes I see more clearly that those years were but a tiny part of
my story God’s plans for my life. I feel like I am exactly where I need to be, more than ever before, and I am starting to feel like my draw to the Word is in preparation for what’s yet to come.
Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Ephesians 6:13